Yes! You heard it here! I got to walk my mountain today for the first time in a very long time! My spirit was joyous with every step on my 2.25 mile trek, and I got to see a few finches and sparrows! They seem to hang around. I didn’t get to see any cardinals or blue jays, but I once again heard the all familiar rustle of the mesquite beans as the wind brushed them with its warm fingers and then went through the grass. It was a great symphony of sounds and silence! I love it when I can just go up there, enjoy the sunshine and listen to everything.
I feel so alive when I come home from the mountain because the peace it gives me is perfect. I feel as though I am experiencing an embrace, as if I had a strong shoulder to lean on and share things with. That is the only analogy I can come up with to describe it. I have left an entire life of negativity behind me, and discovered the person I would like to be in that process. Learning not to depend on others for my identity is a terrific thing. I can stand alone, yet know I am not because others reciprocate that beautiful flow of energy. When that mountain embraces me as it did today, I realize that I am one with it and it with me, and even God has made it that way as far as I am concerned. It is my duty to help others as I am able. Now I do still get into the occasional political debate, but it does not change who I am even for a second.
As I walked, I noticed that nothing is blooming yet, but I did crawl out of my hole and I saw my shadow. Then I realized a few things on that mountain. Sometimes birds signal that protection is there…While I was at my mother’s house last week, I saw a blue jay. Then I saw another one. I didn’t know why but I felt that everything would be alright and felt a peace about coming back home again. I found out today that in a lot of Native American tribes, the blue jay being present is a sign of protection. My mother always feeds the birds. In turn, they give her peace of mind, I think. They definitely gave me that.
There are days on which I wonder what my purpose really is. I think we all do that. I feel that mine is to find ways to help others find their own peace. There are so many good people in the world who cannot see the good within themselves because they carry guilt around about past mistakes and such. It took me many years to understand that today is the only thing over which we have some dominion or control. Many times as we focus on this present, the past likes to throw up the darkened shadows of our past into our faces. This dark shadow, or spirit, likes to tell us “You do not deserve this or that!” and all to often, we are dumb enough to listen to that voice.
When the time is right, what you really need will return to you in some fashion because of your own good spirit. It may be a simple matter of the idea that someone needs someone who not only loves the good qualities about him or her, but who actually believes in the magic he or she can produce. Everyone can create their own type of magic. It may come in the form of the kind word during a time of loss, or the lifting of your brother’s spirit when he has lost his faith in himself. Sometimes all that brother needs to know is that one person believes in what he can do, and then he can see the light at the end of a tunnel. A kind word can go such a long way toward this. Many people turn to drink, saying they enjoy it, but it is really the escape from the dark shadow that is lurking behind that they are trying to avoid.
Light will kill darkness every time. Most of the time, if one really listens, his (or her) footsteps move toward that person, or those people who come their way in order to lift their spirits so that they can carry on. A person who really loves and cares about that person will be the one staying sober to drive this brother (or sister) home when partakes too much of the booze. In time, as the love grows, he may not need to lean toward that dark shadow as much. It will kick up worse for a while and try to hang onto him out of fear, but when the light of the person meant to be there is at its zenith, the darkness has to go back and the person can reach out in faith for help.
As the wind embraced me and the sunlight planted its kiss upon my forehead, I discovered that as I have healed, I can use this for others. I am not able to cook really well, but I can provide a strong shoulder to lean on and let a person know why I feel as I do. In other words, I can be that friend people really need. That way I am paying respect to the mountain that never fails to embrace me and to teach me all that I need to know about this life, and those who will come into my path to enrich it. If I can give them just that wee bit of light to get them through the day, then that is the best thing that I could ask for, isn’t it?
I truly hope that all of you have a wonderful week! Don’t forget to tell your loved ones that they are loved, and do not forget to spend time with the child(ren). It is your light that might just enable them to follow a right and just path in life. When we are old, only then we see how these life lessons have helped them. The only important thing we need to remember is that we may not see why it is important to be good right away because if everything is in a circle, like the seasons, love, life cycles, etc…Then whatever you give will ripple outward like the rings of water produced by a stone being skipped across the pond or thrown into it. It just depends on how wide a scale your one-act can reach. Either way, others are somehow touched by that energy (I think) and then it just radiates toward the people intended–only to return later like a boomerang, but much more smoothly (and gently)! Good night all, and Happy Valentines Day!